Well. updates to you all. As most of you know, I am a dreamer. A true dreamer of that. I dream of a large life. Business owner, a lot of money, nice cars, nice house, beautiful family, and busting my ass to get it so i can just cruise on to retirement. Anyway, that's beside my point today.

First off, I'd like to say to everyone of you, my wonderfully badass friends. I AM FUCKING BACK. Most of you know that for the past 4 months before February I was on the emotional roller coaster of my life. A horrible relationship gone horribly wrong making life... well... horribly horrible. But after large amounts of pain and strife... I finally found a large amount of strength and left. During this relationship my dreams, goals, and aspirations began to fade away, to the point where they were almost nothing. I lost all motivation. I didn't want a job. I didn't want anything for myself. I depended on others to help me. To bring me up. I couldn't do it myself. I depended on her father to keep gas in my tank. It was a horrible time for me that caused me to fall on a downward spiral in the depths of depression. I slept all the time, and when I was awake I just wanted to sleep more. It was bad. Really bad. You all know it. At least... the most of you. But, now it's over. I'm back on track. My friends are popping up on my caller ID again. I feel more alive than ever before in my entire life. And it is ever so wonderful.

I have begun to wake with the sun again, I have returned to church, I have returned to the people I love, I have a job, but most importantly, I have returned to the few most important things to me, more important than anything I possess or anything else I know. I have returned to my dreams. They are alive an well.

Returned are the days of daydreaming and seeing myself in the driver's seat of my dream cars and having an adrenaline rush just thinking about it, returned are the days where I sit at my desk and draw diagrams on pieces of paper of my dream business, returned are the days where I sit for hours on the computer typing up my novel I aspire to publish, returned are the days where I may meet many people at a time, kind people, caring people, funny people, beautiful people, intelligent people, people who I may bring up, and people who bring me up. Returned are the days where I may sit alone by myself and relax without noise or constant fighting. Returned are the days where I can go where I want, when I want, without asking for her consent. Returned are the days where I can sleep at my house all I want. Returned are the days where my dog sleeps at the foot of my bed and I don't have to watch him be shoved away, pushed or kicked. Returned are the days where I can talk to my best friend and not be yelled at about it. Returned are the days of making money and motivation. Returned are the days of loud music and fast driving in my car. Returned are the days of having the whole bed to myself. Returned are the days where my priorities are straight. Returned are the days where the shower is all mine and I am clean because I am always at home where there are clean clothes. Returned are the days where my room has once again become my fortress of solitude and I can be alone whenever I want. Returned are the days of my phone constantly ringing with familiar numbers on the caller ID and familiar faces knocking on my door. Returned are the days of a lonliness that is joyful. Returned are the days where I can be funny and joking without someone telling me to be silent due to a headache, sickness, or period (heh). Returned are the days of infinite boredom with nothing to do at home and oh how I missed them. Returned are the days where my gasoline is used to drive me where I want to go. Returned are these beautiful, glorious, blessed, and wonderful days of freedom. Oh, Lord how I cherish each moment of each one.

My smiles have returned, my loud voice has returned, my 6-8 hour sleep schedule has returned, my appetite has returned, my equilibrium has returned, my happiness has returned. Lastly, most importantly. I, Sean Villagracia, Chief Redcorn (hehe) have returned.

I am SO back in fucking action, bitches.

Amen!

PS- Let's take on the world.